I made a video last night called "I Lost My Mojo" describing how empty I feel. I am asking God daily to fill that emptiness with Him. But at the same time , in the back of my mind, I have a desire to smoke weed. Not that I actually think it would help me in any way but just because I want to.
"Why not? I don't care about quitting right now. " Those are the things I keep hearing in the back of my mind.
February 14th will be my one year anniversary. I will make that date. I will not allow the devil to tempt me back into my old lifestyle. I will not allow sadness to drag me back down into the deep sadness I was living in while being a pothead.
Please pray for me.
I need to remember the truth of what being a drug addict was not the lie my brain tells me that "everything will be fine if I take just one puff. I can handle it. Everyone has expected you to fail at least once during your recovery anyways so no one will think anything of it" The thought of numbing myself even further then I already am is very comforting in a way.
God please strengthen me. Prop me up. Help me in a way that only You can.
I ask this in Jesus holy name,
Amen.
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