Leading up to my best friends funeral yesterday I was going through many different emotions. From anger to sadness to being numb to everything. After yesterdays funeral I was feeling much lighter. Like a burden had been lifted. And it was lifted. Celebrating him helped me a lot. But I naively believed that that was the end of the emotional roller coaster. WRONG!
I woke this morning feeling peaceful. After being up for about an hour I started feeling bitterness seeping in again. I went to spend my morning prayer time with God and felt the anger subside again. Then,as I was coming home from the grocery store, a song came on the radio that made me think of K and I started crying.
I know logically that all of this is "normal". I just have a tendency to think I am different then other people. And in many ways I am. Grieving is not one of them.
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