I woke this morning, once again, to a manic feeling. Trying to figure out whether or not it's time to leave my current job. Wondering if I need to be doing something completely different, which I vote yes on, or if God wants me to stay in my current profession and just do it in a new place. Whether I should go to the march for life tomorrow or not. Whether or not I should continue working 5 days a week or cut back to 4 long days. Hoping a client that is booked for next Sunday isn't actually supposed to be coming in today. My mind was just buggin out on me.
Then I remembered a conversation I had with my mama last night about her trying to control everything. Trying to do everything perfectly and understand everything. And how that's not really trusting in God. Being rather arrogant and prideful to think that we always know whats best and what to do and how to handle everything.
So I got on my knees and asked God to guide me in all these decisions. I went through them one by one and after I finished praying felt peaceful and centered. ready for my day. Whatever happens God is going to handle it and me.
After I finished the thought occurred to me that maybe I forgot to ask Him to help me with something . The next thought was how unnecessary that is. Like God doesn't already know where we need His guidance. EVERYWHERE in our lives.
Thank you for being with me every morning during prayer Lord. Thank you for the peace it brings me. Help me to remember throughout the day to trust in you and not allow my need to control and manage everything overwhelm me. You got me. I just need to rely on that knowledge and do my thing.
I depend on his advice on a daily basis. He guides me when I do not even realize it.
ReplyDeleteThat's what I am starting to understand. He is guiding us in everything we do.
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